From very early on in our relationship, we have been very committed to each other.  On our 1st anniversary, Josh got us a pair of simple gold bands for us to wear.  Seeing us with these rings, I think many people assumed over the years that we were already married.  We never saw the need to have a wedding ceremony because we were already very committed to each other, and the only additional benefit we sought was legal recognition.

When marriage equality finally came nationwide in 2015, we did not immediately marry because we did not want to rush, and because we wanted the date to have personal significance.  With a new administration in place we have felt the need to gain better legal protection for our family.  Our 20th anniversary, March 31st, felt like the perfect date for our wedding.

The wedding turned out beautifully and as planned.  Josh and I wanted to blend elements from our Jewish and Chinese heritage into the ceremony and reception.  We also wanted to have our 4 kids play an active role.  More than 180 of our friends and family gathered on that night.

Photos from that night have been trickling back in the weeks since, and I will update this post if more come in.


Twenty Years of Love

In March of 1997, Josh and I started dating.  After the first couple dates, I knew there was something very special developing between us.  On March 31st, we went out and stayed up all night walking in the streets of NYC and talking about “us.”  We have always regarded March 31st as our anniversary.  Tonight, it will become our wedding anniversary!

Year’s End Reflection

This has been a very rough year. The shootings at Pulse, the sudden death of my uncle, the slow death of my grandmother, and the political upheaval of the election all took a toll on me emotionally.  Josh has been very patient with me, as he has always been.  My birthday falls at the end of the year, which is naturally a very reflective time.  This year I turned 42 and I have come to the conclusion that my answer to “life, the universe, and everything” will always be my family.  As long as I have Josh, JJ, AJ, DJ, and MJ by my side, I will always be content.  This birthday, Josh took me down to Fort Lauderdale for a quick romantic getaway and we had a lovely dinner date night!

We have something exciting planned for 2017.  Stay tuned.

What It’s Like Adopting Our Kids Through Surrogacy

In various prior posts to our blog, we have discussed some of the reasons why we decided to pursue surrogacy to build our family, rather than through adoption.  In a particular post we also discussed how one of us having a genetic link to each of our kids matters, and how it doesn’t.  Essentially, it doesn’t in any way affect how we love and care for our kids, but it does matter in how our parental rights are legally recognized and accepted by society in general.

Recently, in effort to bolster legal protections for our kids, we each completed second parent adoptions of the twin set to which we are not biologically related.  We spent months working on this, and the experience helped us appreciate some of the challenges foster parents and parents through adoption face.

When we first told friends and family about our plans to have kids through surrogacy, some responded with the question of why we didn’t “just adopt”? At the time we suspected that adoption was not that simple, and now we know for a fact that it’s not.  We completed extensive paperwork and gathered all sorts of financial documentation to show that we were a stable home capable of raising children. We found the questions on the paperwork rather intrusive and struggled to answer some.  If our kids weren’t already with us, I would imagine that the way we answered some of these nebulous questions about our personalities might take on earth shattering significance.  We would fret that every answer would make or break our chance of being chosen to adopt a child!

After we submitted the paperwork, we had a social worker visit our home for a home study.  A home study is of course by definition intrusive.  Childless people hoping to adopt probably go to great lengths to make sure their homes are immaculate, and that everything is safe and baby-proofed to show how prepared they are.  Our challenge with two sets of twins (and a dog) already living in the house was a little different.  We had to make sure the social worker didn’t trip over anything and that the kids don’t injure themselves during the visit!

The cost of legal fees and the home study are significant.  I know that in private adoptions of newborns there are additional expenses.  Adoptions are still certainly less expensive than surrogacy, but the total cost can still put adoption out of reach for many.

I also know that parents seeking to adopt through the foster system are also required to attend parenting classes which pose an additional hurdle for many.

When we finally had our day in court, everything was taken care of quickly thanks to our diligent attorney.  The only hiccup was the judge taking a minute to understand that we were actually doing two adoptions at the same time.  We had heard that the judge likes to take pictures with the adopted kids, but we decided to have the kids keep their regular school routine and not attend.  Again, I imagine that the hearing would have much heavier emotional weight if we were adopting in the traditional sense.

So now we are a fully recognized, legal family of 6.  We only had a small taste of the challenges adoptive parents face, and it has given even us more respect for foster and adoptive parents everywhere.  Props!


I couldn’t sleep last night.  I laid awake in bed after the race was called in the early morning hours with racing thoughts.  The little ones are too young to understand, but I struggled with how to explain the election result to AJ and JJ.  How could a world change so drastically overnight?  I decided to suppress my own fears and strike a reassuring tone with the boys.  I told them when they woke that the candidate we had hoped for had lost, but what would never change is our love for them.
We will always do whatever we can to keep them safe, no matter how hostile this country becomes to Jewish, mixed race, same sex parent families like ours.
After I dropped them off at school, I reached out to our lawyer to ask about how we can best legally protect our family in the years ahead.  Stay tuned.
Josh says we got through years like this before, and he is right.  We are fortunate enough to lead relatively privileged lives and will live to vote another day.  Nonetheless we are sorrowful for the suffering of more vulnerable minority members in the years to come.
Our family isn't going anywhere.

Our family isn’t going anywhere.